Friday, July 25, 2008

The Closet

How did I come up with this subject?
Well I was standing in front of my closet, (you must know that I have this fixation of keeping my closet color coordinated and very organized.) and I was wondering what to wear. It was one of those days were you think, “I need to go shopping; I do not have the right wardrobe”. Well the fact is that I am very close to laundry day too, so I was very limited in choice and I just couldn’t make up my mind. I felt frustrated and angry. Needless to say that I didn’t go to where I was invited, just because I didn’t find something proper to wear. Isn’t that silly, I truly missed out!
I stayed home and I prayed and I ask God to reveal to me what the real problem was and to give me the wisdom to deal with it.

Just like my closet, I like to have my life organized and under control. Yet life brings us in different corners where
we have no control of situations or circumstances, we can only rely on God. Of course this brings much trouble to our minds because we do not know where we will end up or how we will find a solution to our problems. It raises a thousand questions in our heads and at times we seem to miss the answer. The thing is that the answer is there all the time in front of our eyes. We need to draw to God and focus on Him; most important we need to remain focused. Easier said then done. Right?
My closet, even though I live in Miami has winter coats/jackets/sweaters on hangers (I can’t fold clothes, that is why everything is on a hanger in my closet), I also have clothes that are 2 sizes bigger then I am now (I was a bit chubby a while ago) and I also have very old clothes I don’t have the heart to throw away (cause I am a collector..right) and last but not least I have those things hanging in the closet that were very cool when they were in the store but once they got into my closet they didn’t match my personality and I have wear them once or twice the truth is that they made me feel insecure and uncomfortable some of them even still have a tag on. My closet would be much more in order if I would only remove those things that no longer fit me and those things I no longer have use for.

Once I realized that the problem was all about my state of mind and focus, I made a list of the things that trouble me so much and I also wrote the reason why they troubled me.

Like the old garments in the closet, I had a pj's my mom gave me long ago, they have holes everywhere but it has a sentimental value for me; can't trow it away. The truth is that I never wear them, my mom will still love me the same and perhaps give me a new pair of pj's if I would trow these away.
My heart is not different, I found all the issues that are just too old to keep dragging around. The guilt of my sins, Jesus paid a too high of a price indeed to keep that guilt hanging in my life, I am not worthy by my deeds but by the blood of Christ. So I took all these things out and brought them to daylight and now they are vanished.

I looked for all those things that are useless and took them away(like the clothes I have hanging still with the price tag on, I have not found yet the right occasion to wear them), like thoughts that only confuse our minds, things that have not happen but you would like to see in your life. They all have a tag, it could be a future husband, new job, new house, new car, we spent way too much time thinking of the things we don’t have but surely one day will be at our doorstep. We try to figure out how those things will be added to us if the circumstances are far from being adequate to make all that happen.
I have to trust God with everything and I have to know that He is faithful and that He is our provider. All we need is His precious word in our lives that is the rack where we need to hang all these things and He surely will make them go away.

Then I removed all those things that no longer fit me, like that dress size eight! Now I am a size 2 but imagine I was size 8. I kept them because I thought maybe I can bring them to resize them for me, the fact is that I will never do that because I don't like those garments any more and I they only remind me of a painful period of my life, so why keeping those things in my closet!
I was this person always in struggle but I couldn’t see the victory at the end of the day, Jesus has change that and has manifested in so many ways in my life but the thing is that I had not acknowledge God’s plan in my life so I thought I had to hold on to those things cause maybe one day I might be there again and will need to use all that all over again. I surely forgot that God brings us from Glory to Glory and not backwards.

I bought this beautiful denim skirt, I loved it in the store, but when I tried to wear it, too short! it is just not me; or this pair of jeans I have, they have a bird embroiled with feathers and all, gorgeous, do I wear it? NO, I look silly, it is just not my type.
So finally I also removed all those things that don’t really match who I am, my ways and my words are the ones which edify the God I worship, no room for insecurity and shame. By mercy God has delivered us from evil and has made us a new creation. Having removed all these things from my heart has made room for righteousness and peace.

I came to realize that I am missing out, just like I missed the opportunity to share a great time with friends the other day, I am missing out on being close to God and be where he wants me to be so He can fill my heart with Joy and Abundance.

After cleaning up my closet, I felt fresh a renewed. I went shopping and I asked God to go with me, I discovered that He has given me and you the best wardrobe ever. He just wants to make sure that we know at all times what to wear and never leave home without. He is so awesome! This is what God wants us to wear:
Ephesians 6:10-20 (NIV)
The Armor of God
10Finally, be strong in the Lord and in his mighty power. 11Put on the full armor of God so that you can take your stand against the devil's schemes. 12For our struggle is not against flesh and blood, but against the rulers, against the authorities, against the powers of this dark world and against the spiritual forces of evil in the heavenly realms. 13Therefore put on the full armor of God, so that when the day of evil comes, you may be able to stand your ground, and after you have done everything, to stand. 14Stand firm then, with the belt of truth buckled around your waist, with the breastplate of righteousness in place, 15and with your feet fitted with the readiness that comes from the gospel of peace. 16In addition to all this, take up the shield of faith, with which you can extinguish all the flaming arrows of the evil one. 17Take the helmet of salvation and the sword of the Spirit, which is the word of God. 18And pray in the Spirit on all occasions with all kinds of prayers and requests. With this in mind, be alert and always keep on praying for all the saints.
19Pray also for me, that whenever I open my mouth, words may be given me so that I will fearlessly make known the mystery of the gospel, 20for which I am an ambassador in chains. Pray that I may declare it fearlessly, as I should.
Amen
Julieta

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